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by Autumn de Wilde
She was persistent, man, and she just hung around, and hung around, and showed up at my place, and gradually, it started to feel better when she was there. It wasn’t love, the way I imagined it. I just felt weird if I didn’t know what she was up to or whatever. And I liked knowing that she was going to be there, and warm, and staying the night. And she acted like I was teaching her everything about fucking history, about sex. She didn’t know what street Central Park started on or how to use soap, and I showed her. And I wanted that chance to show someone everything. But she changed her mind about me, and it was that fast.
Really knowing someone is something else. It’s a completely different thing & when it happens you won’t be able to miss it.
Lena Dunham is such a talented writer. Girls is without a doubt one of my favorite tv shows and its easy to see why when the writing is so real and relatable. I see myself and people I know in each of the 4 characters; Hannah, Marni, Jessa and Shoshanna. It’s dirty and gritty and real and although they are fictional and the story lines aren’t real and the relationships are made up, it is no doubt the most honest thing on tv at the moment.
‘I just want someone who wants to hang out all the time and thinks I’m the best person in the world and wants to have sex with only me. And it makes me feel very stupid to tell you this, because it makes me sound like a girl who wants to, like, go to brunch, and I really don’t wanna go to brunch and I don’t want you to, like, sit on the couch while I shop, or, like, even meet my friends. I don’t even want that, ok? But I also don’t want to share a sex partner with a girl who seems to have asked for a picture of your dick. And also, I don’t want a picture of your dick because I live very near you, so if you wanted me to look at your dick, I could just come over and look at your dick! And I don’t really see you hearing me and I don’t really see you changing, so. I just summed it up for you, and I’m sorry that I didn’t figure it out sooner. And you must think I am even stupider than you already thought I was. But consider it a testament to your charms, because you might not know this, but you are very, very charming. And I really care about you. And I don’t want to anymore, because it feels too shitty for me. So I’m gonna leave.’
And then one day after being fucked up for months I realized something… I didn’t know her. She didn’t know me. Just because I tasted her cum and spit or could tell you her middle name or the record she liked, that doesn’t mean anything. That’s not a connection, anyone can have that. Really knowing someone is something else, it’s a completely different thing and when it happens you won’t be able to miss it. You will be aware. And you won’t hurt or be afraid.
Adam (GIRLS)